What I feel in my heart...

10 august 2011
Busy day...

Today my friend go hospital for a check up... I am worrying...
Because she pain until wake up during the midnight....
She absent for school today... Without her...
There is a feeling of missing something in the class...
Thx that I get the news that her check up is fine and she is healthy...
During school...
I had fight with the physics lesson for around 2 hours.... Super tiring man....
Next we had our usual class at school...
And there are a extra class for the afternoon....
Is the time to meet my friend.... =) Cannot wait for it....

The extra class is the most interesting and class for the year....
We going to try out our some chemical experiment..
It is about chemistry... Carbon and also aluminium...
I tried small grenade and also tiny rocket...
Thx KSY for his hard work on the rocket...
He had tried more than 10 times of trial before showing us this successful show....
We launched a few rocket and also grenade....
There are videos in youtube....

This is the most meaningful moment for me...
I can feel the teamwork from my class..
Everyone waiting to see the rocket to be launch..
Waiting the grenade to boom....
And shouting around...
Yeah... I am one of them... =)
After the practical...
We clean up the field together...
And this time I really feel very good.... And fun....
This is the feeling what we should have between our friends....
I love my Classmate.. I love U6S3 2011 @St. Thomas, Kuching.....

Okay...
Then few of my gang planing to edit the video and post in on youtube or facebook....
Here is out video edit team... Alex, Nicole, Winnie and also me...
We used a few hours to edit the videos....
And we had dinner together at pizza huts...
We face a little problem there...
But finally it is solve...
Haha.... How a wonderful days....

Today... I felt sorry towards my friends or buddy....
I Think i treat them not good enough....
Sorry guys....

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Here is some unhappy thingy i thinking today...
Sometimes i really feel alone when I am with friends...
I think I dont need much friends...
But I need someone to be with me....
Someone who can really pei me....
Someone that i can share my sadness...
Someone that i can share my Happiness....
Someone that i can share everything with....

When i am down...
I really hope you will hugs me automatically...
Come near me and cheer me....
Maybe I need some warmness...

But who will be that nice to me?
Haha.... I think I am too silly right?

This is the way how I care someone....
Sometimes a little hugs... Can cheer a person... Make someone feel better.....
A little warmness....Can pull someone up....
A kiss on his/her cheer... Can make he/she feel safe and calm...
I think this is the right way....

Friends.... I appreciate you guys very much.... I dont want to lost anyone of you...
And this is why I trying to maintain our friendship...
Even it will never get back like before... But at least i can call you my friends....
No matter i get hurt how many times....
I will forget it and maintain our friendship.....
I know there is a limit for me.... But i think i still can keep it well.....

Good luck everyone..... <3

The Secret of life

9 August 2011, Tuesday, Cloudy....

During our life, there are sadness, happiness and so on
Sometimes, I really think that I am stupid towards friends.
This is what their choices, what for I go kepo?
Yeah, but why I still go advice them?

Maybe sometimes LOVE make ppl crazy or blind...
But there are friends telling you that don't go towards it again...
They not gonna be back beside you...
You will been hurt by them very soon...
Haha... But you say that 'he/she already change, and still love me'
You are just imagining that they are back and will still with you forever.
Well, the person who start to say break off...
Then the person will not what you back again..
And they will never miss the moments with you...
But for the one been hurt...
They will still stay in their happy moments.
No matter how hurt it is during the break....
But when they are come back with some sweet words....
They will still trust them...
It is human stupid? Or LOVE make them BLIND?

I also learn that everything got it's pros and cons...
Nothing is prefect... No one is PREFECT...
Therefore IDEAL will never exist...
When the moment you feel down....
You can try to think of the pros....
Thinking positively will make you feel better... =)

Am I too caring towards you? I asked myself this question time to time...
Today i asked myself again....
Because heard that you wanna to go back for your ex-bf...
I dont know how much effort have I used when you breaking up with him...
I wish you will not get hurt again after get back with him...
I can only stay here and support you... =)

Next... I miss the sweet moment of friendship...
Hanging out with you guys... Shopping, playing, eating, gossiping around...
I have lost these feeling and I dont know when it is....
Sometimes, Seeing you guys planning to go here and there...
And I am not invite... I felt disappointed...
Seeing other gang are so close...
They can go eat together... Drink together... Watch movie together...
As what we did before.... But now I really miss that feeling....
Smile, laugh, joking are getting lesser and lesser.....
This is because... I getting far from you guys or because we are getting busy?
Maybe I am out from the circle.....
Even the moment chatting with you all...
I can feel a cold wind blow pass through me....
Well... =) let everything pass....
Maybe now I just need someone to be with me.....
I trust that friendship between us will never ends.... The few of us....
But unfortunately... I start to scare that you are annoyed by me..
Through your action... Through the way you treat me....
Even you say that you treat me as a buddy...
But I feeling that you are pushing me away....

Closed my Eyes refresh back to the moment with you....
Imagine that you are still with me....
Yup... Everything will be fine....

It is the time to let you go and protecting you from behind.....
You will always be my best buddy... Inside my deep heart.....



GOOD LUCK AND ALL THE BEST!!!

A Colourful day..

Today 5 August 2011.
Early is the morning I woke up a few times.
3am, 4am, 5am then 6am...
........
Time for school, With the fear toward physic's test....

At school I felt myself melting in the Kpop that play by Lee
Enjoy...=)

After a few period of class, Rushing for my work....
Finally the last two period 'Physics'
Haha....
Study whole day but I don't even can understand the question.
Nvm bar... Sorry Poh make you been scolded by teacher....

Yet today i know a silly girl.... 'Sim'
I don't know what you are thinking.... Too naive?
Others all can see that you are been play...
Don't be silly bar.... Only make ppl feel you are bitchy.....

School day end like this.... ^^

Go home at 1... rest a while bath eat ....
4.30am Go meet ern ern.... =)
But she is late.... Haha... Nvm lah.... Thanks you for belanjar me....

After that JAM!!!! On the way send Poh home and go Richmond....
Jammed 1 hours plus... Haha
Finally reach and had my dinner with ern ern, amy, tyy...

After that send ern ern and amy home....

The story is start now....
Today i had accident...... First accident to knock others car....
I am too careless.... I should not be like this...
Hmmm maybe i am worrying something..............................
Kept silent when meet mother... Well every cost use for repair
I wish i can use my own saving......

Okay..... Have a colourful day filled with happiness, sadness and also fear.....

Thank you , Good Luck and Jia you for you.......

The moment you told me the stuff.... I am down....
Yet i kept my tear in my heart.... Seeing you guys like this i am hurt....
I wish i can use my life to change everything for you...
Give you happiness.....
Leaving is what you choose....
Then it is the time for me to let go.....


Good Bye with a full blessing for you.....








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